Holy shit!! It’s been 11 days since I posted because clearly I’m a big fat sober SLACKER now.
Soooo, smoke-wise I’m on Quit3.0, and it’s going really well. I finally just read “the book”: Allan Carr’s EASYWAY To Quit Smoking (the book, the holy boooooook *Gregorian chanting*) and it stuck. As it does. If you want to quit smoking alls you gotta do is get the book.
Regarding sharing my sober status, I have to admit that I am not being taken seriously. Seriously. And it’s starting to piss me off. Well, not really. But it is somewhat vexing. Everyone’s all, “yah, I gotta lose weight too…” or some other completely non-commital bullshit. One of my friends has high blood pressure and she drinks just like I used to, but recently she started losing weight her blood pressure was leveling out and she was feeling better. So I asked her if she cut down on the wine and she sort of evaded my question several times– she HAS been cutting back quite a bit on the wine but it was like she refused to admit that the wine reduction was IN ANY WAY contributing to her better health. Whuuut??? She’s all, “yah, that, and I’ve been working out….eating (whatever she’s been eating, I wasn’t listening because HELLO!! You cut out wine– mostly– and you feel better and won’t cop to it!) this and that…”
Now I understand why my friend C. didn’t go into a lot of detail when she first told me she was sober (about 3 years ago). Because she already knew first hand that NO ONE ACTUALLY BELIEVES YOU. Or wants to. Same thing. It’s like a shade drops down in front of their faces– give up wine TOTALLY?? Not an option and furthermore what a FILTHY SUGGESTION. Let’s pretend it’s NOT A BIG DEAL FOR YOU so I will not have to think about this at all and then wonder if I’m an actual alcoholic later tonight.
None of this really matters. I’m sober whether they believe or not, whether they drink or not, whether they get it or not. So I’ll just have to Let It Go.
Now, for the THING I DID. It’s not the thing itself (it was actually prepping tomatoes for canning). But that I did it after work. Right. After. Work.
Okay, listen!!! All I did for 2-3 years straight is come home and hit the patio with my wine. Then after I quit doing that, I hit the patio for Smoke If Ya Got ‘Em. Today, I just got up and did A Thing. There was nothing stopping me from doing The Thing, nothing distracting my attention from said Thing. And that is COMPLETELY AMAZING.
Okay now that I’ve blown everyone’s MIND, I’ll leave you with this:
Picture of my super neat drawer with “filed” clothing rectangles.