So, yah, holidays are DEFINITELY HAPPENING. It’s Xmas Eve Eve here in the PNW, and it’s also my Friday. I am off work until January (yippee yay!)
Since it’s sort of Friday, I’ll do my week-in-review wrap up (because WHY THE FUCK NOT??)
WEATHER: First of all I’d like to invite someone to PLEASE KILL ME WITH A ROCK- I haven’t seen the sun in 3 weeks. The rain is seriously not stopping. If I bitch about the heat next summer please tell me to STFU.
WATER (see WEATHER): It got in our basement-level music studio. The power was going in and out and the circuit running the sump pump tripped. Fortunately (or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it) the wool area rugs wicked up most of the water. You’d be surprised at the amount of water those fuckers can hold! So they currently smell like dirty wet farm animals, if you can dig it. The good news is, none of the guitars or amps were damaged *rock on!!* (However an Ikea coffee table took one for the team.)
SHOPPING: Nope. Still not finished. Going out late tonight to purchase remaining gifts and also potatoes for my xmas dinner pledge of au gratin. It shall be excessively cheesy.
WORK: I spent the week crawling up a ladder and working up in a ceiling. My back is creaking. Bitch, piss, moan. Annoying mean-girl coworker has moved to another building and is behaving appropriately. I got my annual pay raise. Ceiling not looking so bad.
Okay so enough of that, let’s talk about WHAT WE’RE DRINKING FOR XMAS!!
I have a several items lined up for xmas day:
- Some weird NA cold duck my dad brought over a while ago
- Chardonnay sparkling grape juice with some sort of fresh fruit juice
- The illustrious bottle of Fre NA red wine
- Enough ginger ale/beer to sink a battleship
- Fancy schmancy coffee I received for my birthday but cannot use at home as I have a Keurig and do not own a drip coffee maker.
- Insanely refreshing, dirt cheap store-brand cranberry/lime sugar free sparkling water.
Wow, that’s I lot! I’m probably going to be peeing frequently.
Will I miss my mimosa on xmas day? Mmmmm… I don’t know. I might. I doubt it. It’s hard for me to get sentimental about any one drinking occasion since I had turned my entire life into a drinking occasion. There was nothing “special” about any of it. And every time I visualize that one “special” glass I really just see wine glugging out of a box and splashing wine into my glass (and some onto the floor). NOT SUPER SPECIAL. So maybe no, no I won’t miss it. Right now, I think of wine as a bad relationship in which I tried to make it work for years but in the end was spectacularly fucked over: I don’t trust it, I don’t have any good memories of it, it’s kind of an asshole. So I won’t be spending the holidays with it, obviously.
Saturday, we’re having company. Yes, humans. Coming to my home. I told my friend to bring booze if she wanted it because we’re on the wagon and she said, the wagon sounds like a good idea. So I was rubbing my hands together and muttering, “Everything is going according to plaaaaan…” I’m thinking about trying an NA Sangria with the red Fre wine.
ANYWAY, I am really looking forward to xmas and my time off and doing it all awake and aware and sober and without a banging headache. What I’m most excited about is starting my new year without regrets, without disappointments, and without the anxiety of knowing I HAVE TO QUIT DRINKING THIS YEAR FUUUUCK. Because I already did it:) I rolled through last New Year’s Eve with my resolution ready and it took several tries (and fails) to stick last June.
I hope that those of you who just started your sobriety decide to really give it a go and choose not to drink in these next few weeks. Seriously, if you can get through your first sober week/month during xmas YOU HAVE PROBABLY GOT THIS SHIT IN THE BAG. And you can stroll into January with your head up, ready to kick ass.
And for those of you who do decide to drink this holiday season, that’s okay too. Just figuring out that you might want something different for yourself made this a great year. There’s always next year!
Merry Xmas, awesome sober people!!